I am on this planet to serve people. It's an inner drive, a thirst to do what is right by others. I am not in this for approval, applauds, or gratitude; I am simply living my purpose and doing what makes me feel good about me.
It seems rather selfish, though. I mean, I find my self-worth in helping others find their strengths to overcome obstacles . . . Barriers are a natural experience of life and yet, can trip us up if we're not persistent in finding the solution.
Ushering others to find and utilize their strengths when barriers manifest is probably one of the most satisfying experiences ever. Whether one is thankful for the support has never been my mission; it's simply knowing they now have a testimony they can own and that's wonderful. We all need a testimony about that one time or the lifetime of struggles we overcame. This is what builds persistence, resilience, and fortitude. Within in us all is the ability to achieve success on our own terms and it looks different for everyone.
For some, success is simply getting up in the morning. For others, it's writing the 'to do' list of tasks to be accomplished before 3 PM. It's a worthwhile question to ask, "What does success look like for me?" The question prompts a level of honesty that can open up doors and create personal success on individual terms. It can be scary to consider our personal success because it means there is a level of responsibility we must maintain to make it happen. Greater yet is taking responsibility for our own happiness.
Happiness is not a thing or something to be chased. Rather it's something to be. Being simply is. How does one achieve being? To be honest I don't know. My happiness was once connected to my profession, but when I stopped being that profession, I found myself in this strange place of nothingness, yet I feel whole and complete. As I progress through this space of non-being of what I previously was (if that makes sense), I am thrown between random emotions of fear, joy, relief, and anticipation.
And now I am asking myself the question once again, "What does success look like for me?" To further understand where I am going, I ask, "How can I help people on a grander scale?" I don't know the answer and I don't even know how to find the answer, but I know I will " . . . struggle on it . . . and not forget this is my dream."
